As a social creature, I need connection. To be vulnerable with others, I feel it in my heart that I must first be vulnerable with myself. Connecting with myself means building awareness, accountability, and neutrality with my thoughts, words, and actions. That means... facing my inner struggles that make me doubt and question my beautiful inner light. A beautiful light that we ALL share, I must add! A light that I have allowed to dim... especially throughout my life's challenges.
I notice I start to close off, when I have some serious work to do. It took some time and it still takes time to notice this. I still miss the opportunities to notice this self-alienation. What can you say... I'm a work in progress. I think we all are. To notice this... I feel it in my heart that I must first take down walls, defenses, shields that I've placed to protect myself - physically, mentally, and emotionally... I feel it in my heart, that I must be vulnerable with how I think and what I say and do. I close off because there's an insecure part of me that doesn't value my true worth.
SIDE NOTE: An interesting thought about human behavior: Is there a connection between devaluing your true worth and how we act in social settings? Someone who is insecure may be timid to share because she/he is frightened by the possibility of embarrassment. Or, someone who is insecure may be seeking out constant external attention and validation from others. *At times, both me... btw!
This is why I find it crucial to build a self-care practice... whether that means facials, bubble baths, reading + tea times, aromatherapy oils, enjoying your hobbies, yoga/meditation sessions to you... there are endless ways to self-care and different ways to help you value self-worth. Have you explored a self-care regimen? Regardless if you have or have not, how about trying or strengthening a current yoga/mindfulness practice?
Join me.... Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday for YOGA! Let's connect, my fellow human ♡
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